This time I trained and practiced over and over again.
This time, it was going to be different.
This time I was ready.
I got ready, I did the pitch… and one person bought.
Sadly it was my brother's friend who then asked for a refund a couple of days later.
Again, I went home and wallowed in self-doubt.
I thought to myself, “I have to get better at this cos right now I suck.”
How was I going to do it though?
I started shouting my message from every social media channel possible, doing what I thought would get me more clients.
I noticed that the more I put my message out there, the more people started laughing at me.
“Who are you to teach?”
“You're not qualified to help others.”
“You have no clients, no results, nothing.”
“Who are you?”
I started massively doubting myself.
Then things got worse - a lot worse.
One of my closest friends, one of my best friends that I grew up with, someone I had known my whole life, his dad was my dad's best friend, I heard that he'd been saying cruel things behind my back. Words I would never want to repeat.
I became a joke.
And my closest friends were laughing at me.
This was the first time I'd ever really had someone hate down on me.
You kind of think it's going to be from someone you don't know, not from one of your oldest and best friends that you grew up with.
I started to feel like a joke.
I started to question the whole idea.
Maybe they were right.
Maybe I was a joke.
Who was I to help someone else when I could barely help myself?
I got really emotional and started to get upset.